_Saturday, October 18, 2008*

undelivered letters
i suddenly think of you when listen to the lyrics of Katy Perry's Hot N Cold. Describes YOU... almost too perfectly.

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak
Crypticly

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
you're not gonna change

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, You don't really want to stay, no
You, but you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

*- amanda scribbled at 10/18/2008 05:30:00 PM

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_Thursday, October 16, 2008*

bucket list

1. witness the aurora phenomenon first hand
2. visit the swiss alps
3. meet my soulmate... hopefully in this lifetime
4. write and publish a fiction novel
5. ballroom dance
6. a nice beachfront house near a quaint little town
7. annual getaways with the girls
8. rich enough to live life without worrying about $$
9. bmw convertible
10. get a crocker spaniel & maltese mix

i don't see a degree being a requirement.

*- amanda scribbled at 10/16/2008 02:19:00 PM

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_Friday, October 10, 2008*

beyond me.

either i'm the luckiest person on this planet or the unluckiest. i'm not sure.

i feel like i'm getting stretched so far i'm starting to space out. i feel weird.

is this more than i can handle? looks like i'm just about to find out.

isn't it ironic? yeah i really do think.

it's cruel fate more than everything else.
what do you do when you lose hope, faith and trust in the people you're supposed to be able to rely on the most?

*- amanda scribbled at 10/10/2008 12:00:00 AM

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_Friday, October 03, 2008*

(^.^)

yes i know i'm so totally random but i know u guys still love me all the same.

tip of the day: if u're looking to start a conversation, DON'T EVER use the words "i'm BORED".

it's a pathetic excuse that puts people off, especially me. even if i'm too polite to say it in your face, i'm still annoyed by the thought of people talking to me only cos they got nothing else to do.

one, i've got my own life and i'm not in any way obligated to entertain you even though we're friends. go find something else to do with your life.

two, if i don't reply it means either i sincerely haven't seen your message OR i don't want to give you a reply( = i don't want to talk to you... and is more likely to happen if u frequently don't get replies from me.)

three, don't send more than 1 message. if i don't reply your 1st message, i'm defintely not gonna reply your 2nd... or your 3rd... or your 4th... and so on and so forth. save your effort, time and money (yeah, i can be quite a bitch.)

four, unless u really need my adviceopinion or help on something important/major/significant, DON'T ask or tell me about it (especially if it's totally insignificant). define insignificant? consulting what/where you're considering to eat/wear/go/do in the next 30mins as an individual.
no, the next 1hour or day or week isn't going to cut it either.
i'm not your mom. i don't see how my reply will affect your decision making process so please get some independence and decisiveness.

i don't give a shit if you're not sure whether to watch gossip girl, heroes or prison break...
or whether you should cook or eat out...
or whether you should study or play...
or whether you're bored and i'm not...
or whether your cat threw up a furball or a tennis ball...
or whether your hamster went swimming in the toiletbowl...
(last 2 were totally fictious but u get my point. it would be oddly amusing and funny if that really happened though. nvm, sick sense of humour talking.)

i'm sure at this age you're capable of making your own choices.

five, thinking a little more out of the box helps. convention all the time is a boring thing to follow. you get too predictable. please go ahead and surprise me. i DARE you to. (you'll light up my life just a little bit more.)

six, don't be wishy washy. if i ask u for a suggestion, it means i want your opinion. don't throw me back a "i don't know. you decide.", just shows you can't be bothered to think. (i know i'm guilty sometimes. though most times i really don't care.) lack of effort is not something i appreciate. if there's something i want, i would have made it known without you asking. so think a lil harder and come up with something better before i totally stop asking u for what you think. (since i'll know the answer's gonna be a blank anyway. why waste my effort asking.) it would be so nice if you did some thinking once in a while. even better, getting a mind and life of your own would be great.

on a final note,
i am SERIOUSLY... NOT. YOUR. MOM.
peter pan, it's high time you grew up.

*- amanda scribbled at 10/03/2008 11:44:00 PM

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_Wednesday, October 01, 2008*

startling differences.

amanda's getting her groove back! xP

i've never felt this way for such a long time. it's almost seductively delicious... *grins* looks like things are looking up now. this midsem break's just going by so fast. i don't it to end just yet, not when i'm just starting to get my spark back.

never mind, survive the next month of torturechallenge, and you'll be able to get back to your rekindled loves. i wish i started out sooner!

i hope i'm not just dreaming this up. feels too real to be just a dream.

gonna make up for any lost time.
i promise.

*- amanda scribbled at 10/01/2008 11:27:00 PM

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