_Wednesday, September 22, 2004*

blog on hiatus... -sobs-

here n now, i shall bid farewell.

boohoo. got lotsa stuff on my mind. argh. exams comin. you. chem. e maths. a maths. phy. tests. CHINESE. ss. lit. blah blah blah. i'm juz being paranoid la. as usual. i'll juz bcome some dumb idiotic worrywart during e pre exam period. -sorrieeee- can't help it. aiya.

wad on earth is goin on btween us?? u're always so busy wif ur stuff. r u really tt busy or r u juz can't b bothered? i wanna stop thinking abt u but i can't seem 2. dammit. somtimes u totally ignore mi, while on other times u're juz so damn caring n thoughtful. i dun get u, probably nv will. juz wad's realli goin on in tt mind of urs?? if u really dun hv e time, juz tell mi. dun keep mi waiting here without a clue 2 wad 2 think of. it's been such a long time. if u still mean wad u told mi, show it. i juz hope u didn't say it juz 4 e sake of doing so. bleh. juz go away. disappear. dunno wad's so gd abt u anw.

bahhh... leave mi alone. shan't b blogging till e end years ends. byeeee.

*- amanda scribbled at 9/22/2004 08:32:00 PM

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_Friday, September 17, 2004*

if i cld turn back e hands of time...

i wldn't hv done such a STUPID thing!!! sheer stupidity. n i'm regretting. boohoo. i want a new phone dammit. arghh. if u dunno wad i'm talking abt... dun ask mi. coz i'm not gonna tell u wad happened or y. u'll probably suan mi till die of embarrassment or sth, or else u're juz gonna LYAO. wadeverr. like i care. k. mayb i do care. but wadever...

bleh. anw... wanna tell ya sth, i'll luv hello kitty till e end of time!! she's juz e bestest, cutest, friendliest(on par wif e x-tremely lovable fooey), most lovable, perkiest, most tolerable, most amiable, most... bite size tch in dis rubbish dump we call sch. ohh gosh... i dunno wad wld happened 2 our ever quirky class standard of eng if she ever left us. poof. dun wanna noe. she rox!!! haha. i juz luv her man. *no. i'm not les* woohoo. she gave mi 20/25 n a smiley face 4 e ct la. i'd juz die w/o her!!(juz an expression) lol but life wld realli b miserable w/o her... pfft.

boo. juz got back e ppr dis wk. flunked 2 tests only. whee!! major improvement frm e last time round. =) but still... only got 15 4 e l1r5. bahhhh... i juz thank god tt it's a change frm e 20 sth i got during mid yr. juz hope tt my results hold out till e end yr's over. ahhhhh. speaking of which, ends juz e day b4 my bdae!! wad a blessing man!! wheee... last paper's on 12 oct n further more, 13 oct(my bdae... -hint-x10000000000000000000000000000000000times) is a hol!!! 4 whoever's not taking art la. hahah!! 14 & 15oct r MARKING DAYS. NO sch!!! heheh... i'm gonna hv funnnnnnnnn. xp

i juz realised sth. nokia rox. no-kia rox. no-kids rock. haha. look at dis... ericsson. erics-son. eric's-son. NO WONDER SO RETARDED!!! bleh k tt was lame. arghh... tt stoopid camel faced ass can tell us we're bhind e syllabus n still tell us lame jks tt aren't even doing anything other then 2 bore us even more. oh gosh. when's he ever gonna realise tt ONLY his classes r e ones who r lagging bhind BIGTIME. y r there so many egoistic tchrs in here who juz luv hearing us greet them over n over again, WHEN THEY SAY TT DEY ALWAYS CAN'T FINISH THEIR LESSONS?? r dey juz plain deprived or wad??? bleh k i'm yet again wasting my time crapping in here. out i go. ciao!

*- amanda scribbled at 9/17/2004 06:24:00 PM

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_Tuesday, September 14, 2004*

not my will, but Yours b done...

lalala. it's been some time since i last typed in here. haven't realli had e time 2 update. lol realli sorry abt e blur blog if wad u see is blur. i hv no idea how 2 edit tt problem. anybody noe how?? pls tell mi!! thx.

e hols r OVER. n a sense of dread is hanging over everyone... mayb not natalie la. heh. e end yrs r comin!!! *panic* poof. e holiday mood is gone in an instant. hmmm, was e holiday mood even present at e first place?? bleh 24 hrs a day isn't enuff 4 mi!! so much 2 say, so much 2 do. k. i admit. my time management sux. TT's Y I'M ONLINE UPDATING N CHATTING. heh. but e hols were gd la. life slowed down a LOT. gave mi more time 2 re-evaluate my life 2. hmm, a brief summary of my wk. mon, tues - study. WED. took a break n went ta town wif my dearie nutcase =) tt was fun!! haha. literally shopped till we dropped. poor gal had sore feet after tt. hee. but it was worth it rite?? haha. nvm. we shall go back again in nov / dec. whee... thurs- study. fri- studied n went 4 e church youth bbq. reached church early 2 help out wif ver. e drinks n stuff. dis time round, e bbq was definitely more fun than e last. but fewer pple were present. e peeps in charge of e games were great. e fella who did e herbal essence shampoo ad shld b in charge of ads AGAIN. =P think i'm gonna bring a few frenz e nxt time rnd. =) sat- went 4 e j21 concert wif a few of e church youths. it was quite an eye opener la. got mi thinking abt wad i wanted 2 do wif my life... or rather wad He has install 4 mi. when e time comes, wld i really b prepared 2 lay down everything i've got to serve Him after wad He's done? it's a choice of my own, e ans seems so clear yet blurry @ e same time. blur due 2 sin, due 2 my own foolish pride.

wad i saw at e concert realli hit mi hard. those poor kids who didn't hv much of a choice or much less a shot at wad life had 2 offer. e images were juz so saddening, esp e video... e children n their families living at smokey mountain. those footages were so heartwrenching. over 59 countries in e 1040 window... all lost. all waiting 4 some one 2 make a difference in their lives. as i watched n heard e video, i began 2 think. y on earth did God put mi in sg?? wad were e chances tt i wld end up in sg compared 2 those i wld end up in one of e many countries out dere... much less in a christian family. it was all part of God's plan tt i was placed here... yet how did i repay him?? or did i even thank him? throughout my life, my walk wif Him hasn't really been with Him at all. it's been rather dead. i took things 4 granted.sure, i tried. but e flame within me wld diminish in days... it's definitely hard 2 lead a holy life. urgency, love, sacrifice, cross cultural sharing. i knew e urgency but haven't really been bothered by it. i knew abt e love 2, but i didn't realli put in in action. He made such a big sacrifice 4 us yet, am i even willing 2 follow him everywhr?? much less talk abt cross cultural sharing. after viewing it, i juz suddenly snapped out of my denial. i was resisting Him when He was trying 2 help. like wad someone said: " After all tt u've done 2 him, he still holds out a helping hand 4 u 2 grab on 2. yet, wld u humble urself n accept e help offered? " to tell e truth, i've nv realli whole heartedly served God. i was concentrating 2 much on mi, myself n i.there were so many "wad if's n why's". i was always doubting myself. then i realised how selfish i had been. juz e day b4, i was flipping through e bible n 2 verses caught my eye. exo10-12. why bother abt everything or anything else when He's e creator of all?? all i had 2 do was ask. ask n it shall b given, knock n e door shall b opened. e reason y i'm sitting here typing all this is coz i've decided 2 make a change in my life. =) n if i ever fall back, which i'm pretty sure will happen somewhr down e road, i'll always b able 2 look back n noe why i chose e road i'm gonna walk. =P

haha. hmm, on a lighter note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 my dearest Grandma!!(biological) haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 AH MA(e cheesy one) =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 MY DEAR pammie!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 thasherny
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 ethel
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 roy
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 kj
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 randall
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 emrys
erm... & HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 anyone i've missed out *oops*

*- amanda scribbled at 9/14/2004 07:45:00 PM

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_Tuesday, September 07, 2004*

pfft...

wheee. i changed template!! nice?? if ya can't see a different one frm e flower one, refresh ur page. it's a lil slow. haha. yay!! i luv tracy!! finally getta go out tmr. =)

*- amanda scribbled at 9/07/2004 06:19:00 PM

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_Thursday, September 02, 2004*

"i wait. i wait"

so she said what's the problem baby,
what's the problem I don't know.
well maybe I'm in love,
think about it every time,
i think about it,
can't stop thinking 'bout it.

[accidentally in luv * counting crows]

haha. tt's e last u'll ever see or hear abt dis song on my blog. lol. it's causing 2 many problems. lalala. whee. it's been some time since i've updated. busy la. heheh. k. shall share a lil on wad been goin on tt keeps mi away frm my comp. =) haha. dunno whether tt's supposed 2 b gd or badddd... depends on how u look at it. whee... look at e time!! n i'm only having my dinner now. n i'm having... ... fruits 4 dinner!! yay!! might explain e current mental state of mine. heee haww... i'm an ass.

wah.... 2day got handbell!!! AHHHHH!!!! mrs aw wants 2 kill us wif her choice of songs la!! she bought so many neeeeew scores n most of dem are damn fast. 2 songs 4 syf nxt yr!! AHHHH!!!!!! someone shoot mi!!!! save mi frm dis agony!!!!! *ok i'll cut e drama* stupid maple leafy song n some danza festivo thingie~ gosh i still like disney songs e best. haha. under e sea, kiss e gal, part of ur world, cols of e wind, wad else ah? oh yah!! beeeeee-you-teeee n e beast!!! i wanna play tt one!! mrs aw's soooo mean. let grp2 play. hmph. n we get wad? marche & part of ur world. so fun. *rolls eyes till dey drop out* haha crap. if play part of ur world i wanna get C & D. my E & F notes r gonna boreeeee mi 2 death. ah... till death do us part. HAHA. lame. k.

hmmmm wad did i do 2day? hmmm... lemmie c. met tray cee at amk lib. heh. sorry dear. i was hee.. late. haha at least we managed 2 get seats fast. =) we studied 4 6 hrs straight!!! haha ok. mayb not tt straight. went 4 lunch n stuff. speaking of which. APPLE CRUMBLE & hot chocolate!!!!!!!!!! i want!!!!!!!!!!! oh gosh~ i'm droolinnng... *pls keep in mind wad i'm currently eating* haha. i'm so deprived.

bahh. hmmm k.i'll start frm e very beginning. a very gd place 2 start. lalala. ok i'll get a life. whee studying was fun. till tracy uh.. met a few "communists" along her journey of learning. "inhale... EXHALE... inhale... EXHALE" haha if u dun understand NVM. dear tracey will understand. rite dear?lol. bring a hair dryer nxt time k!! yeah. tt mini one u hv. lol. he doesn't get e hint. nvm. e study mood was temporarily gone. so we went 4 lunch. =) kfc. fwhee. u n ur cheesy fries. my bandito's still better. haha. lesson learnt: nv eat cheesy fries if u're wearing a white shirt!! lalala.

lol on e way back 2 e lib, tracy was wishing tt e communists wld either run away or move 2 some really far away place. but sadly... dey were still dere when we returned. haha. poor gal. anw did more studying n then went 2 see wad dey sell at e cafe. gosh. superdeeduperdeeleecious. spent quite a while deliberating on wad 2 get. brownie or apple crumble? finally we settled on some apple crumble. shiok sia!! n tracy made a mess. haha. so did i. n so did those lil kids screaming their heads off!! pfft. anw, we went back up after eating. tracy's wish came true!! dey moved 2 e land of far far away. lol. so peaceful after tt. then tracy had 2 go.. so early... it's juz 5.30... but i stayed 2 study longer. hee. BUT i walked tracy 2 e bus stop n waited wif her till her darl' 853 came. see!! tt's wad i mean by sg's transport system being screwed. lol.

oh yah thx 4 e yummy konnyaku(correct??) jelly. haha. munching on dem on e way back hme. hee. came home. n i came online 4 a while... then i had 2 go off again!! haha. this time 2 a movie preview at cine!! whee.. THE TERMINAL. it may look boring n all... but trust mi on dis one. it's one of e best movies i've seen. damn funni!! i was LMAO n it ALMOST made mi ROFL. tom hanks rox!! catherine zeta jones damn chio la. despite her age. lol. krackoshnia!! e ctry tt tom hanks(viktor) character was frm. i like e part when he 1st met tt officer in charge of customs police. his character was such an asshole but he was nice at e final end. perserverence does pay off!! he asked sth like "whr r u frm?" n viktor's reply was "whr can i buy nike shoes?" lol. he cldn't understand eng at all. n dere wasn't a translator arnd. n viktor had a list of questions in eng which a typical tourist-who-doesn't-speak-eng wld hv on a 1st time visit 2 "e big apple" wld hv. damn funni!! n his innocence was oso amusing. he's smart 2 la. e camera part was funni 2. haha k tink i've said enuff. i shall b gone now... till we meet again. haha!

*- amanda scribbled at 9/02/2004 01:39:00 AM

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