_Wednesday, July 28, 2004*

Cedar rox e stadium down!!
sch was as usual 2dae. we were SUPPOSED 2 get dismissed b4 CE!!! but dey cancelled it so we had 2 attend all e lessons. sukky!! et was being an ass as usual. but dis time, tracy n i concluded tt he wasn't worth a camel. et is an insult 2 e poor creature!! gahh.. i need my tuition. i won't b able 2 survive a maths w/o it!! 2dae's geog rox!! whee!! got an A2 4 e ct even though i tot i was gonna flunk it horribly. but it was oso quite saddening coz i missed A1 by a single mark. hee. but nvm i'm thus far happy wif my marks. =D

immediately after e sch bell rang, pooty, weed, nav, ah ma, t-rex & mi got squashed up in reggie's dad's car. lol. weed was half in n half out while i had 2 sit on ah ma ntracy's lap. blehh wth. haha. dunno y tracy found it very amusing. kept laffing non stop. n as a result, evrybody was influenced in2 laffing in tt squashed area. e worse thing was reggie's dad was on e phone!! n we were like trying 2 keep our vol down. so it was yah. comical. esp TRACY!!! haha, went 2 leisure park 4 lunch. rex, ah ma n mi ate ban mian!! damn shiok. lol. weed nav n pooty went 2 shop n save n bought bread 4 lunch. :S haha saw so many pple dere!! e 3 of dem left 4 e stadium 1st. coz it was 2 crowded.

haha once we reached e stadium, e 1st person we saw was weisan. n she told us 2 use e stairs tt was nearest. SOOO, we ended walking 1/2 e stadium b4 we actualli got 2 our seats. blehh. had 2 cut through st nix, acsi, tch, nanyang 2 finally get 2 cedar. lol. mah fan. some schs alr started cheering. dey muz hv been bored. haha. tracy's fren frm st nix was being snotty. wadever. dis yr's finals were e BEST!! it RAINED n Rained n RaInEd!! n we were drenched. everybody was drenched!! heck. we juz continued 2 cheer in e rain. =D yay. haha. oh yah. kj. u're freaking blind can?? haha. u oughta get an eye check up or sth. everybody was enthu all throughout. muz b coz of e rain. e umbrella's were useless. had no other purpose other den sheltering our bags n stuff. didn't realli do a gd job at tt either. anw cedar got 3rd 4 c div n 2nd 4 b div. st nix ahead again. blehh. but had 2 admit cedar was close. sports sch wass irritating. hogged e 1st pos 4 almost every event dey participated in. but acsi managed 2 overtake them in one event. acsi roxx man!! tch got 1st 4 both b & c div izzit? not sure. but dey were damn sukky la. idiotic pple. esp those who carried e banner during e announcement of e results. dey tried 2 get infront of cedar when we were dere 1st. so ungentlemanly. anw e field was filled wif cedarians n tch pple waving e flags both yellow somemore. lol.

wanted 2 take weed's parents' car but later decided 2 walk wif pam, christabel, ah ma, tracy, shit, shaomin n others. so paiseh 2 take a lift frm weed's parents n leave e car seat soaking. haha. on our way out, we overheard some tch geeks walking bhind mi n pam, saying tt we were short. stupid MCPs. i was kinda irritated n kinda subtly 'retorted' tt short gals had advantages.dunno whether dey heard or not. but i said it quite loudly. hee. somehow, strangely, n weirdly, when we reached kallang station, dere were onli tracy, mi, ah ma, pam n kj left. e rest were lost bhind. bleh. got on e very crowded train wif tracy n kj. blehh. dere was dis realli irritating woman in her middle age fooling around wif her hp ringtones. my ringtones were nicer den hers!! haha tracy played dem at lvl5. lol pple stared. n tracy was like waving my phone around rather vigourously. haha. she probably got e hint la. den she stopped fiddling. BUT after tracy alighted at toa payoh, tt sickening idiot stood infront of mi n cont 2 play her blardi irritaing ringtones!!!!!! n it's not as if dey're tt nice. luckily i onli had 2 tolerate her 4 2 more stops. i was diao-ing her all e way.

*- amanda scribbled at 7/28/2004 09:52:00 PM

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_Saturday, July 24, 2004*

confused, messed up & disoriented

words. so simple get hold devastating consequences. some say man created words juz 2 satisfy our need 2 complain. thx 4 messing up up my plans thoughts with juz a few simple words. but still thx 4 getting mi 2 think. didn't expect dis 2 happen, didn't mean for things 2 turn out dis way. time, why does it always seem 2 work against u when u need it e most. i just need time 2 sort my thoughts out. 24 hrs a day ain't enuff. i'm really sorry 4 wadever happened coz of me. sighhs. wad's goin on? dunno. dun wanna know, but y do u choose 2 tell me abt it?? sometimes i juz wanna block out these thoughts, but i can't. it's hard tryin 2 pretend tt i dunno wad's happening. it's easy 2 fool others but not myself. i dun wanna hurt our frenship. but it juz seems inevitable. can't dis juz blow over? i really hope it does. think i probably know y kingshaw did wad he did. i've got so much on my mind now. hmw, tests, problems n solutions tt r juz avoiding mi. i've got so many ques on my mind but i can't seem 2 find e answers. ohh God help mi, u're e only one i can fully trust in. wad am i talking abt? idk. i wanna get away frm here. to those who've been here 4 mi through all my horrible moods, guess i owe u a huge thank you.

*- amanda scribbled at 7/24/2004 11:22:00 PM

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_Wednesday, July 21, 2004*

i juz realized how boring my life is
study, handbell, tuition. study, handbell, tuition. wad a vicious cycle. looks like tt's all i ever get 2 do. nothing realli interesting ever happens. blehh. wad on earth is "interesting" 2 mi?? i'm startin 2 get bored... realli bored. almost evrydae i go 2 sch 2 face shilaowang, n camel tan. i'm so damn glad tt lhb is outta cedar. 4 e time being tt is. i realli hope she doesn't come back n take over ms begam juz b4 e o's nxt yr. if she ever returns, i'll b doubling my time in tuition!! as if 8 hrs per session isn't enuff. yucks. at least wif tuition i now understand phy, e maths, a maths n chem a lot betta den i did last semester. results r oso reflecting tt!! whee. can't blieve i got 16/20 4 tt recent phy test. felt like e happiest ever. but e 4 marks oso darned wasted. careless. i'm such a blind bat when it comes 2 mistakes staring straight up at mi. so many calculation errors n crap.

did titration during chem pract. titration1: did a pair work wif nav. lol evrything was workin fine till preetos turned e mixture green by adding 2 much when i told her 2 slow down. bahh.. haha workin wif her is fun though!! after we finished e exp, she turned e mixture frm clear 2 purple 2 green!! dunno wad she added. think it was ammonia n hcl. lol.. she was so amused by e immediate change. titration 2: dis was a very kok-ed up experiment. now's individual work. i realli think e sch shld get new equiptment n conduct yearly quality checks on stuff like e fridges n lab equiptment!! i was so blardi pissed during tt pract. how 2 do titration when e burette n pump r not working properly??? had 2 keep changing stuff. tried out 3 pumps. all not working!! n not 2 mention we oso had a limited time 2 do 3 rounds of titration. by e time i got a workable pump, e solution reacted wif sth else n i ended up wif a solution wif some powder floating on top. n had 2 go replace tt 2. by e time i realli got started e others were alr doin their 2nd round. if i ever get those equiptment 4 o level pracs, think i can say gd bye 2 any chance of getting an A.

wad on earth is wrong wif et n shilaowang?? both of dem always seem 2 b picking on mi. shilaowang undoubtfully picks on julia a lot but she seems 2 start picking on mi 2. she'll ask mi 2 read passages, when goin through any zhao ju, she'll suddenly say "chuan yu!! ming bai mah??" it's not as if i'm playing a fool or talking or anything liddat. et oso. for some reason he's always calling mi. i'm doin tt func worksheet when he's on his talk-to-himself teaching routine. den he asks mi 2 complete his workings. wth?? u juz write ur steps on e board n expect mi 2 ans when u didn't state wad u want mi 2 sub tt func in2. how on earth am i supposed 2 ans ur freaking ques?? argh. i CANNOT stand tt idiot. when pple wanna ask u ques ur ans's almost e same as : it's like this bcoz it's like dis. i'm sure u're a bright student but u juz dun work out as a tch. i'm probably e blurest student in class yet my tuition tch onli spends 20mins teaching mi e whole chapt of func, n i fully understand. ON E OTHER HAND, he spends 55mins teaching ONLY 2 simple ques, n e whole class goes: "huh??" after tt lesson. even his teachings confuse mi on wad i've alr understood. at e rate u're goin, u'll nv b able 2 finish e whole syllabus.go away.

eng oral was horrible. think i'm gonna get a C or sth. mrs foo looked realli bored. lol. i didn't realli noe wad 2 sae abt e picture. dis time we're supposed 2 wait till e examiner asks e ques b4 u rattle on. weird. wonder y e sudden change.i didn't realli hv much 2 sae coz e ques weren't realli 'expandable'.. blehh. e passage n e pic had sth 2 do wif education but e conversation was weird. wad do u think of telling jokes n practical jokes. think i'm gonna die. i onli talked abt practical jokes. den mrs foo asked if i ever played any practical jokes on any tch b4. haha. i said yes. during april fools'. she sorta laughed den said u can go. blehh had hb prac after tt. dunno y e melody sped through marche n bridges. had such a hard time catching up. think next yr's syf is realli gonna b horrible unless we practise realli hard. whee. i'm finally in grp 1 only!! yay. frm now onwards mrs aw's gonna b real strict wif us. tt's gd n bad. her standard's realli high. argh.. syf's nxt yr. betta start practising. hv 2 at least get a silver. michelle n felicia's batch gonna b realli upset if we dun. it's gonna b our last yr in cedar 2. gotta keep e standard or push it higher. can't let it drop.. but i realli worry 4 e next generation of cedar ringers. dey've got realli horrible attitude though i dun think dey lack e talent(esther). eg. john little.

racial harmony was fun. took lotsa photos!! but i've no idea whr dey r coz i took wif a lot of diff pple. hmm lemmie if i can rmb. neh, monica, lyn, anna, cheryl, shalini, shit, weed? bahhh can't rmb. 2 many. haha. anw if u've got pic wif mi in dem, pls send dem over k?? thx!! might post some in here when i get dem. hee. tracy's plastic bag n tamil costume incident was e funniest!! lol.. nav. weirder den usual. got crazier as e dae ended. lol n yah. stupid. weed n ah ma restructured e whole family tree. AGAIN*dorts*

*- amanda scribbled at 7/21/2004 03:02:00 PM

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_Friday, July 16, 2004*

chewy brownie addiction
whee i changed my blog template. was bored of e last one. haha. nice rite?? n kok jin. i did it MYSELF w/o any help k!! lalala. hmmm i've decided 2 update my blog at least once a wk frm now on. kinda neglected it 4 quite some time. :) so retarded. okie. let's get down 2 work.

handbell
mrs aw hasn't bee comin 4 e past 2 pracs... i've realized tt w/o her, pracs r actualli kinda pointless. coz either some pple end up slacking n playing a fool after an hr or so or we go totally outta timing. n i'm not e only one okie!! gahh.. some how i wished mrs aw wld b dere. at least she wld push us when we start deccelerating. loll.. phy. ladeedum..we've oso got a new committee. but not realli decided yet. haha. mian mian, mian mian. y r u always addressing us as class???????????? bahhh. dere's a huge diff bwtn class n cca leh. argh... nvm.. it's badd.. she's startin 2 show signs of vong-na-be.she's always popping in n talking 2 pple at e wrong time!! pple need their breaks n pracs u noe?? dun realli like her. she's new n doesn't hv any experience being in charge of a cca grp anw. ohh yah. i dislike her even more after she lost e flyer proposals.

HSL (stupid) fundraising event for e Community Chest
gosh, i seriously do not wanna hv another one of these sales ever again. such a waste of time n money. since time=$$. we're juz wasting A LOT of $$$. charity w/o intention isn't charity at all. e sch shld blardi hell get a proper fridge wif a freezer tt works. wah lao. juz a few hrs in dere n e ice cream comes out as cream!! horrible pple. ur can opener stinks as well. ethel n mi were literally trying 2 pry open e cocktail can with a spoon. e can opener shld b in e dump not e cooking lab!! it's freaking rusty n horribly blunt.wow.sales were great. all e stuff sold pretty quickly compared 2 other classes. e most popular food were julia's yummy cheesecake n nav's choc cake. after tt got a lift hme frm llama's parents. whee. her parents rock mann. loll. her sis is damn cute la.

*- amanda scribbled at 7/16/2004 03:46:00 PM

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_Tuesday, July 06, 2004*

KiNda BoReDeD

haha. heya peeps!! dis gal's back 2 update u on crap again!! b happy yah?? coz i rarely don't.

lalala.. so much stuff happened since i last blogged.. lemmie c.. 1st: my comp crashed. 2nd: concert at VCH. 3rd: back 2 sch. 4th: Glanz Nacht CF(annual cedar guides campfire) dese r juz e major stuff la. i can type some granma's story here again, but i guess i'll juz leaving e nagging part 2 ah zhou la. it's HER job. haha!! okie k. lets see...

Crashed Com
k. dis one nth much 2 blogg abt la. my com crashed. yah. sooo... e onli time tt i cld come online was when i was in sch. DURING tt dumb IT course.. tt trainer realli pisses mi off la. she told us 2 come at 9.30. guess wad? i came at 9.45 n she still wasn't dere yet. tt's not e best part, e freaking com lab wasn't even open!! n all who were dere had 2 sit outside in e corridor till tt wadeva-his-name-is guy came 2 unlock it. how nice. k nvm. was alr warned by some pple tt she wld b late. ohh yah. noe sth?? she was late 4 all e IT classes she took n ours was e last batch. -_-" nvm. next, preetos, ahma, t-rex, guniang, weed n mi faithfully did or stupid website n got evrything done as like one of e 1st few grps. yeah. e trainer was reall nice. she made us wait till we were e LAST grp tt she attended 2. which was onli 2 or 3 hrs later. damn bored leh. sit dere, wait, nth 2 do, eat sushi, finish, wait some more, went 2 call her a million n one times, till FINALLY. she came. i was gonna peng liao. she finished our webbie in like 5 mins den she let us off.. we were e last 2 leave when we were e 1st few 2 complete!! she cld hv finished ours in juz a few mins but decided 2 make us wait 2+hrs juz 4 5mins of her time. worth it?? NOT!! wadeverrr.. thinking of her juz makes mi pissed.

Concert at VCH
yay! e day tt we practised so hard 4 arrived. met weed at ppmacs. 4 once she was later den mi. she was STILL at home when i reached macs. was later joined by jh. lalala. practised 4 a while in e AS2 den packed up. VoNg ordered pizza!! nice rite?? yeah!! so niceeee.. it's e 2nd stall pizza. (-_-) n we all tot she ordered canadian or sth liddat. fat hope.

aft tt, got evrything packed up e buses n headed 4 e VCH. backstage helpers weren't helping much.. juz carrying e tables here n dere m e bell boxes were left 2 e seniors. nice juniors huh? ran through e program once at e VCH. den went of 4 dinner. dinner, btw, sucked bigtime. e rice was damn salty n i onli ate e tofu. haha!! i kapo-ed evrybody's tofu. *yummy* onli tt was nice. wasn't veri hungry. den went 2 change n kenna made up by charlotte's mom.. not bad la.. i was e 1st person she put e make up on. her mom's scary. kinda rough wif e foundation. my make up wasn't tt bad la... i tink it was one of e lightest. haha!! e rest aft mi suffered quite an awful fate. loll.. my make up wasn't tt obvious. aft tt got bored of waiting, so started 2 wander in2 e waiting area wif weed n lynette. haha! e 1st pple we saw were ahma & tracy. dey were so amused wif our costume. n guniang, as usual, cldn't resist pinching my cheeks. :S I HAD MAKE UP ON TRACY!!! loll. anw, hung outside 4 a while n saw quite a few pple. okie. not a few la. A LOT. we onli went back backstage after 3/4 of e concert hall was filled.. n poor yuanli's shoe broke!! loll.. poor gal had 2 swap shoes wif acs. acs was ushering.anw. went backstage aft tt. waited arnd some more. haha. i tink i've spent abt 1/4 of my life waiting. loll i tink vong was kinda bored 2. she saw yanyi n asked her 2 follow her... so she cld put on more make up 4 her!! loll. den she examined evryone's make up so dey wldn't look so pale. luckilly she din touch up mine. haha. lyn was running away 2 e toilet 2 hide. loll okie. time 4 our performance. waited a damn long time b4 we were signalled 2 get our stuff on stage. damn stuffy bhind coz dere were a lot of pple trying 2 get frm one end 2 another. n e passageway was tiny. absolutely squashed up. finally we were out.. arranged our bells n stuff n got back in again. yay. waited 4 e emcees 2 announce our item n a brief intro. went up. evrything was fine till les miserable. tt was when i was realli miserable. e last song n i screwed up. bahhh. lucky it was onli one song. like wad lyn said. encore was fake. veri veri veri fake. loll mostly were guys doin e shouting 4 encore. one guys shouted "CEDAR GIRLS' HANDBELL!! ENCORE!!!!" i was like uhhhhh.. so lor sor 4 wad.. others juz shout "encore" den u muz add in extra useless words. blehhh. k nvm.. he probably had gd intentions. anws. encore was great. went back in after tt. n one more thing i wanna add.. I LIKE MY BASS BELLS.. my precioussss... lolll.. crapp..

Back 2 Sch
:' ( so many tchs aren't tching us anymore!! though i dun realli miss chem. I MISS MR CHUA & LEOWSY 2 BITS!!! mr chua's taken over by eric tan. a veri tall, n kinda not-e-type-who-jks-type kinda tch. frm nie. currently form tch of 3C. poor gals. apparently he said dis 2 dem " you shut up when i tell you to. cause' i mean it. " mean sia. lessons r kinda borin now w/o mr chua's stories abt his lil gals. :S ohh yeah. we've got a new chem cum form tch. hello kitty still tching us eng but she's no longer our form tch. she's taken over by ms baygen(sth liddat) she's a gd chem tch, but i dun tink we'll b as open n frank 2 her as we were 2 hello kitty. blehh..vong's goin 4 a 1/2 course oso. got another new hb tch. kept addressing us as "class".. when we weren't. den later she asks "wad does mrs ong usually call u gals?" haha. cute la. yay. we're not performin 4 national dae. but we've still gotta learn some new songs. n according 2 mrs aw, dey're e toughest songs. :S but i like 7 bridges A LOT. e tune's damn nice.. it's a jap song. but lotsa key changes here n dere.

Campfire Nite
cf was farn. yeah. it rained againnnn. not bad la.. was funn. but some pple not realli as enthu as e last time. didn't realli participate in e 100legged worm n others.. but mi n tracy went 2 do e cannibal king. loll.. dey oso had preety entertaining games n performances. not e least bad. great music 2!! haha. guniang n mi were like singing most of e songs like hey mama, heya n etc. so funn!! haha. wanna go again nxt yr!! loll dere was dis kinda obscene pose done by one scout n guide. haha i dun even noe how 2 describe. loll tracy took a pic of e both of dem but later del it.. i wanted e pic!! so did pooty n weed. loll n we saw dis realli gigantic snail n she freaked out. it was realli huge lor.. haha. dere was one game whr e scous n guides had 2 pair up wif each other. n dis realli cute, short, tiny ri scout paired up wif another realli cute short gal guide. n dey had 2 do a slow dance. loll.. dey shld hv won lor!! haha. anws, dey had great coordination n dey were e CUTEST couple. lollll.. evrybody said dey shld hv won. blehh.. anw.. we 4 refreshments den back hme after tt.

*- amanda scribbled at 7/06/2004 01:54:00 AM

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