_Friday, June 16, 2006*

HAPPY DAY.

or rather happy night. lol. (x

*- amanda scribbled at 6/16/2006 11:59:00 PM

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_Monday, June 05, 2006*

some pages turned, some bridges burnt, but there were some lessons learnt.

carrie underwood's got nice songs. (:

Jesus Take The Wheel

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her mama & her daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to a shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said, "I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight"

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh


lovely song... true too ain't it? why must something major happen before we surrender everything to God and ask him to 'take the wheel' to stop us from spinning outta control? it's so true for me. i know something's wrong in my life but i'm still not doing much about it... i'm just waiting for that big SOMETHING to shock me outta my inertia. an easy excuse would simply be that we're human. we make mistakes. but hey... why can't i get myself to put my foot down and actually get something done about it? even if i attempt to get something done, it soon gets undone strangely by myself... i feel like a big bunch of knots. i lose interest and then i'll drift. or has that SOMETHING already happened to me but i've yet to realise it? sigh. why am i the way i am? i guess i'm not the only one facing this problem, in yesterday's life section was a column on how this journalist had procrastinated catching up with her friends till one by one people around her were dropping dead. that was when she decided that she had to get them together once and for all. rarr. why only at that instant do we really sit up and pay attention but we nod off the rest of the time?

my post's in a mess. my points are everywhere. haha. i'm not even clear on what my points really are in the first place. oh well. i'm a mess. no wonder the messy typing. here's another song before i make an even bigger mess.


Lessons Learned

There's some things that I regret,
Some words I wish had gone unsaid,
Some starts,
That had some better endings,
Been some bad times I've been through,
Damage I cannot undo,
Some things,
I wish I could do all all over again,
But it don't really matter,
Life gets that much harder,
It makes you that much stronger,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

There's mistakes that I have made,
Some chances I just threw away,
Some roads,
I never should've taken,
Been some signs I didn't see,
Hearts that I hurt needlessly,
Some wounds
That I wish I could have one more chance to mend,
But it don't make no difference,
The past can't be rewritten,
You get the life you're given,
Oh, some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were,
Lessons learned.

And every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Everyday I wonder how I get through the night,
Every change, life has thrown me,
I'm thankful, for every break in my heart,
I'm grateful, for every scar
Some pages turned,
Some bridges burned,
But there were lessons learned.

And all the things that break you,
All the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on,
Because they are gone,
Lessons learned.

*- amanda scribbled at 6/05/2006 10:24:00 AM

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i dunno why i suddenly feel like blogging.

haha. i can't disappoint my darling tracy...

10 years ago I was:
still awake watching Nightmare on Elm Street with my mom. i hate scary movies.
5 years ago I was:
still going around northpoint after sch buying bubbletea with extra pearls and shooting them at my class guys. whahaha.
1 year ago I was:
in sec4z sitting with auds and bapok.

5 snacks i enjoy:
butter cookies! brownies, cereals, nougats, tracy! ice cream haha!
5 songs i know all the words to:
running after you [planetshakers]
more than words [uhhhh westlife?]
cedar's sch song! whahaha
some hearts [carrie underwood]
my happy ending [avril lavigne]

5 things i would do with 100 million dollars:
get a house by a beach in hawaii, donate some, get a chef, shop, enjoy life. haha. wishful dreaming.

5 places i would run away to:
i like beaches. clean and not so crowded ones that is...

5 things i would never wear:
animals, uhhhh... reptiles... anything that's been alive once.
5 bad habits:
late coming, blur, procrastination, do i eat and sleep too much?ahhh i like it that way. haha.

5 biggest joys:
God, family, friends like preetos nut piggie wiggie botchy ahma, sleeping and food!!!

5 favourite toys:
my phone, my ipod, my imac, my bed, my bathtub & rubberducky. hahahaha

5 fictional characters i would date:
darcy (pride and prejudice), legolas, tracy's imaginary friend. oh no i'm going nuts. hahaha come out, come out whereever you are...

5 people i shall tag to do this:
GWENSON, butt butt, aiya you wanna do just do la. hahaha

*- amanda scribbled at 6/05/2006 01:15:00 AM

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_Friday, June 02, 2006*

come on, come on, turn a lil faster.**

*randomness*

WE SURVIVED LTC!!!! (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (:

only 5 days more babes!

ahma go get a another job la. screw your boss mwhahaha. oops.

pwpwpwpwpwpwpwpw...

that day.

heehee. (x

hope i get in!

mmm... u don't know what i'm typing about do you? haha. good. keep it that way.

i love stargazing or plainly just staring off into space. (:

ilys! oh no. hahahahaha.

i've gotta be honest, i think you know.
somewhere beyond this, i hope i can find the words to say.

here's a map and here's a bible, if you ever lose your way.
and here's one more thing, don't forget to remember me.

well i guess,
some hearts they just get all the right breaks.
some hearts have the stars on their side.
some hearts they just have it so easy.
some hearts just get lucky sometimes.

**Disclaimer: i'm currently in a unsound state of mind. please pardon any groundless or sensitive statements you find offensive in this post. thank you very much!

*- amanda scribbled at 6/02/2006 09:51:00 PM

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